Tuesday, September 29, 2009


This evening, I watched a documentary about midwives. I ate supper while watching a baby being born. The head was out when it struck me... should I be grossed out by this?

Maybe I should be a midwife.

Monday, September 28, 2009


My brain feels like a big pile of sludge.

It's expanding, but not in a good way. I keep filling it with junk, the mental equivalent of stuffing your face with chips and McDonald's all day, and all I am getting is a sludge of junk where my critical-thinking, question-pondering, awed-at-the-miracle-of-life brain used to be. It's shocking how easy it was to slip into this routine of work 8(ish) to 4:30, eat, tv, sleep, get up, repeat.


So here's my plan: GOALS. If I learned anything in school, it is that nobody gets anywhere without goals. And this really is the perfect time - I have boatloads of free time, and my commitments are limited to, like, doing my own dishes.

Goals for October:
- Read the biography of someone I find inspiring
- Go on a road trip to somewhere I've never been before
- Try and stay focused at work; a good day's work makes my outlook brighter
- Explore the history of the area in which I'm living
- Find somewhere to volunteer on a regular basis
- Exercise (cardio) three times a week *sidenote: I do pilates at work twice a week, so hopefully this combo will get me back in the game!*
- Try one new recipe each week (baking, cooking, or a new smoothie or shake)

Also, I wasn't joking about that earlier post. I am currently drinking my last glass of wine (sigh.. I really do love red wine!). More and more I am realizing that if I want to have children in the future, the decisions I make today are going to affect my kids more than when I actually start trying to get pregnant. Good habits take time to form.. so I should get a head start! I actually saw a pregnant woman smoking today. I didn't think that still existed.



FAS is f**king scary. I quit drinking. Just in case.

P.S. My couch arrived!! Horray!! I have a living room now!! (Thanks Mom and Dad <3)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

kinky boots.

This is my new favorite scene of any movie. My old favorite scene used to be the tub scene in Big Fish, when Albert Finney's wife climbs in the tub with him with all her clothes on.

This new scene is from the movie Kinky Boots. This is an exchange between Lola, a drag queen, who is trying to avoid discrimination and attention while visiting a small town in northern England, and the host of a bed and breakfast (Mrs. Cobb) where she is staying.

Mrs. Cobb knocks on the room door. Lola jumps out of bed and rushes to put on her wig.
Lola - "Come in!"
Mrs. Cobb -(hands Lola a cup of tea) "There we go!"
L - "Thank you!"
C - "And the room's alright for you then, love?"
L - "Absolutely lovely Mrs. Cobb, yes... lots of um.. lots of trinkets."
C - "Ah, now the little pottery shoes, they're good luck, you see, you know, like Whitby has lucky glass ducks, Northampton has lucky pottery shoes. Can I just ask, are you a man?"
L - (shocked) "... I am love, yes."
C - "Ah, that's fine, just so I know how to leave the toilet seat. I'll get some biscuits."

I loved this scene because in a small town where everyone stared and judged and was so focused on Lola's gender, Mrs. Cobb straight up asked and for the sole reason of providing the best experience for her guest. It was so flippant, it was shocking. I think this was one turning point in this film. Now, I have to go finish watching it!

Saturday, September 5, 2009


living room before and after (the pile of stuff on the floor is gone, I promise!)

living room again, before and after

kitchen before and after

..this is taking forever.. more to come!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

tired and happy.

I'm moved in!!! It's not quite finished, there are a few pieces left at Mom and Dad's, so when it's all put together, I will take photos and post them here. I can't get over how great this place is for me - it's the perfect size! I was worried about the storage space, but as long as I store carefully and restrain future purchases (my mother loved this idea), I should have no problem. I don't have a linen closet, but the drawers in the kitchen are huge (my landlord renovated recently, and he's got great taste too!), so I'm using one of those as a linen/towel drawer. I also didn't realize how many kitchen items I have.. for having an apartment of my own for the first time, I'm pretty well equipped!

Mom's coming over tomorrow night with a few final things for this place. I have to say I am extremely spoiled to have parents as great as these two.. they packed up all my things today at home (while I was at work) and met me here after work. I made one trip from the van to the house, and the rest of my time was spent unpacking what they brought in. They made my bed for me, broke down boxes, helped me unpack, and presented me with a "housewarming gift" of a grocery store gift card and a bottle of wine. I felt like royalty :)

Shortly after they left, I was talking to the bf on the phone, and I got a call from my brother - he and a few friends were in town and wanted to see the place! They were literally outside my door when they called, so I let them in and we chatted for a while. I have been in my apartment for literally under three hours at this point and I've had guests already!

Between that experience and my bf coming to visit this weekend, I don't think this week can get any better! I'm feeling a lotta love right now..